something which i never even think b4 happen.... is tt the truth or is jus SHE is angry wif us? i really upset wif wat she say.... from the last post, i mention abt the scolding... but i never say the most imp. line... SHE said -if tml i cant c a standard performance, u all will not perform.....- well.. tt day SHE also told charmaine.. we have 80% not performing... lol..
from wat u all know.. me is not in the performance... but however, we r a group.. even it does not concern me, i also have to help... i really wish i have magic... can change the performance to perfect...
after tt, we decieded to have training early in the morning... 7.30am... *sad* i cant go.. i really wish i can b there... i really wish i can help.. even i cant help much.. i also wanna gib support... at home, i pray everything will go on smoothly... i really wish [qi ji] will happen...
finally... sun (yesterday).. performance day... i get to know all info from angelyn and others peeps.. they train early in the morning till SHE comes to c the "standard"... never stop! they tried hard... they wish to perform... however... in the end.. we fail... SHE do not think tt it have reach her standard... ok.. mayb is really our fault.. we never reach the standard.. so i don blame her for tt...
how ever... SHE have her"talk" again... SHE blame angelyn and charmaine for destory wat SHE have set up in the 1st place... destory? wat have they destory? none! from the 1st place! she never done anything!! if have.. mayb.. teach us some skills... but! tt is not enough! it is not enough for us to reach her standard... wat have she done? every meeting.. she seldom comes.. if come, jus say some words and goes off... TT CANT IMPROVE OUR SKILL! we tried hard to improve by ourself... if we never tried! i don tink parables can reach today! tt is still alright.. i still can [ren] i keep thinking tt we mayb have wrongs too... cos i still believe tt she trust us.. it is jus tt she is disspointed of our performance...
HE! (SHE's husband) he! destory my believes... he make me feel tt WE! have no place! he said-"those who want to act cool here, pls get out.. and now.. i tell u all.. we can set up parables and let parables have this days, we have the ability to set up another 1.. so even if all of u'll quit, it does not matters us.. cos we can find another batch of ppl and in a short time train them up..." i m hurt when i get to know tt HE said this.. wat r we in his eyes? mayb not even dust... i m fed up!
angelyn ask me wat if she quit? wat will happen? she say nth will happen.. everything will go as normal.. the only diff is she will b relax... she don not need to care abt parables anymore.. she do not need to plan anything anymore... at tt point i really ask myself.. should i quit and not letting them hurting my pride anymore or should i [ren] and prove them we r not as bad as they thinks??
while thinking, angelyn tell me... she quit nvm... but if i quit... 1 group of ppl will follow me quit.. lol.. when i heard this.. i jus say 1 word.. "crazy".. i m jus a nobody.. no 1 will follow me quit... from tt point, i realise tt each and every1 of us were hurt by those line tt HE and SHE said...
b4 this happen, i m sure we all have our heart in parables... but now.. i really cant know... mayb some heart will b shaken... i really cant think wat will happen in the future... i really do not wish parables jus like tt and break off... i need to find ways to pull every1 back to 1 heart...
but how... wher should i start wif? *trouble* more and more trouble for me.. which should i do 1st? help! i need help!
