Yoyoyo! anne here (gao yin sheng). well, jus feel like writing sth here.. pls pardon me if i m too naggy ... everytime saw others cry, saying how much they like co blah blah blah.. i jus felt weird..cos i cant do those things jus like them or ever have any feelling that i like co ( i didnt mean i don like hor.. wat i mean is jus neutral feeling)..
Sometime i like co, sometime i tink co is sian... so.. in conclusion, i thought that i never love co ever b4..i thought that wat i did in co is jus all because its my job, my responsibility.. but ysd i realise that i really really really like co.. (well, i know i m slow)..haha.. only at the last day in co than i realise that..
If i don like co, y do i borther to b sad when i saw co is getting lousy each and every day, why m i excited and happy for all the concert/performance.. why i can engrosses i the music while playing till i donno wat happening around me.. and y i m happy to c that co is starting to improve, why i cant stop the joy and excitment in myself when we played real nice music? and y do i hate myself when i make mistake or cant rmb the scores well... frm that moment i really understand i like co all the while.. its jus that i didnt know abt it..
While we r sitting down at the side to wait for out turn ysd, i suddenly rmb the times i had in co.. happy,sad,angry,joy, i had all these feeling within the 4 years in co..happy-> the fun i had will all friends and mr low and all teachers (sch + instructor) sad-> saw teachers that i like and respect goes off 1 by 1.. and we failed to get gold in SYF 2005 angry-> some members didnt wanna listen to me.. and still argue.. joy->the joy i get after all performance.
Think of all these, i really drop my tears..1st ever tears that i dropped while tinking that i m leaving co OFFICIALLY!.. i really regreat that i never really use my heart to cherish the time i had in co.. the only time that i really used my heart to cherish is ysd night, the concert..
Ok now.. i feel like i m writting compo le.. overall, wat i want to say is that thank you guys for letting me to have this memory.. pls cherish the time u had in co.. don b like me.. only realise all these at the last day..(but i m still counted lucky as i still have this concert as a memory) no matter u like or don like co now, pls cherish the time u now had.. mayb u r jus like me.. don even realise that u like co..
Ok! last of all... i jus wanna say.. i love MSLCO! thanks guys for letting me having this WONDERFUL experience... thank you... well, this is the post that i post in my MSLCO webbie.. i didnt know y i will write all those... i jus have ther urge to write all those in the web.. don care whether will there b any1 seeing it.. lol.. haha... now post it at here, for my memory too =P Oooo! we r creating a alarm-nine for co.. COOL! haha... hmmm.. seeing many ppl cried ysd after the concert.. haiz... don bear to leave co too.. but time don allow... =( ysd concert is really a success! wow.. cool.. it came out better than i thought! althought i did make some wrongs in it =P i will rmb the night I wont b writting wat happen in the concert.. who call u all don go watch by urself =PP haha... jkjk... everything had come to an end.. its over... a sense of relief and sadness.. =( ok le lah.. no mood to write anymore.. I M SLPY!!! haha =PP kk done.. buai~~
1:01 PM @nn3_@n+
Saturday, July 01, 2006
wa... long long long long time never blog le.. got lots to blog de.. but since its over for a long time, write also no use.. haha don write le.. so now, i shall write some which happen these few days de... sch starts le.. sian... jus when i started to have the mood of holiday, sch starts le.. =( hw,hw,hw,hw.. all coming on its way... well, at least now still not so stress... but soon, it will.. hmmm... i really tink i m stupid.. Y M I SO STUPID!!! i hate myself!!! i m going to flunk my chi le lah!!! starting i still hope that my oral can help me pull up the marks.. but now, i don tink got any hope le.. know wat?? the conversation part qns actually got learn b4 de!!! but donno wat happen.. my mind is jus blank.. so no choice but to crap all the way for the oral.. T_T die le lah.. y m i sooooo STUPID!!!! i really hate myself!!! y cant i b smarter like others??? y cant i b like others so sociable,smart,fun blah blah blah... well, mayb thats me... gd in nth! ok now lets talk abt MSL concert! hmmm... it consist of CO,choir,and band! well, pls kindly support us... TY! hmmm... this is the last concert for me le... don really feel excited for it.. donno y.. last time everytime got concert, wa.. so happy, so excited.. now? haiz.. don really know how to express it... still got to memorise the scores.. haiz.. this time also.. cant rmb it into my mind... play these few songs for a long time le.. but still not able to rmb it.. y leh?? in the past, i don even need to bring the scores back home and try to rmb it.. this time, i need le.. haiz.. rmb that time rehearsal.. cannot bring scores up the stage.. only can put at floor, i haven memorise it yet.. than haha.. silent for almost the whole songs.. or else wif wrong notes.. wats wrong wif me this year?? nth go on smoothly for me.. T_T wats wrong??? haiz... moody moody moody moody.... =( is there really no 1???
