Thursday, December 14, 2006
wohoho! wa today hand and shoulder very pain... mayb is the bbq last night... haiz.. LONG time never do those work le...
tml dot,bel will b going to genting.. wa.. so gd... go together as friends.. COOL! but that also means will b bored le... =(
dec is a bz mth for me... in the last week, i have 3 performance coming up... i enjoy 2 of them nia.. cos the 3rd 1 is the mco =.= STRESS lah!!! yawn.. so slpy... ok stop for now le.. i wanna watch my anime!! haha bb~
tml dot,bel will b going to genting.. wa.. so gd... go together as friends.. COOL! but that also means will b bored le... =(
dec is a bz mth for me... in the last week, i have 3 performance coming up... i enjoy 2 of them nia.. cos the 3rd 1 is the mco =.= STRESS lah!!! yawn.. so slpy... ok stop for now le.. i wanna watch my anime!! haha bb~
6:56 PM @nn3_@n+
short post again~ YES! today is the last day of the youth seminal.. wahahaha.... but then on the 18th, we still have to go back for donno wat thing...
today still got bbq... and is my group organise it... we know we are the organiser for the bbq long time ago... but no 1 went to do it.. till 3 days ago, we than start to rush... and if without father T to rush us for the price list, i don tink we will start that early too.. haha... mayb all of us will jus 4get abt the bbq... haha
so today went shopping... i woke up at 6am.. so as to meet them at 8... done everything by 7.05am.. than went to watch the shows that i recorded the night b4... when it was abt time to go out, i still didnt off =.= suddenly have the urge to watch finish that episode.. haha.. so in the end... YES! i was late =.=
but late also gd lah.. cos when i reach there, only 2 ppl reach only... out 0f 18 ppl, only 2 arrive.. haha... so plus me, 3... soon, jos came... than we decided not to wait.. and went to shop... during the shopping trip, there is some fun events... like the action when dora are to hold the sotong.. haha!
also, we also learn how to choose fresh stringray and sotong... if sotong is white, it is fresh.. if got lots of red dots, it was not really fresh le... for stingray, u got to smell the fish whether there is urine smell... if there is, ur fish will have the taste of urine too...
after buying all the things, we went back to wash the chicken wings and sotong and more... i was in the chicken wings section... haha... the chickens are like sooo BLOODY! the chickens sure eat lots of iron b4 it died.. so it produce lots of blood... haha... cos it is frozen chickens, we add water into the big basin where we store the chickens.. than the water was like sooooo cold.. than our hands are like FREEZING!
than we still massage the chickens.. help the wings to do some stretching, pressing... haha.... than we add those sauces to make the wings taste nicer.. well, its really the 1st time i did those.. every other bbq that i went, they jus take the wings and put butter than bbq le..
than still got 1 fun de... sotong not only don have brains, but they also very greedy o! we got 1 sotong, than we cut it.. and know wat we found?? SMALL UNDIGESTED FISHES!! not only 1 lei.. but is 2 and half! haha... wa.. they really very greedy o!
at the bbq night, we still have the ritual dance for the blessing of fire.. of course not church thingy lah.. but father T wanted us to have this dance so as to make the bbq fun... than we make out the dance in like a few hrs... it was so funny lah!!! total got 3 types of movements... than we dance with only 1 tune... "who ga sha ga~ who ga sha ga!" we still have the tribe leader-JOEL! haha... he still make his face wif the chachco power so that he look more like the leader.. haha... he is funny...
than we still have a small explosion!! donno who put the lighter near the fire there... and no 1 saw it... it jus suddenly BOOM! no fire lah.. but lots of smokes... the 2 person cooking over there was shock... and me, who was at the side, was hited by a small thing.. but donno is wat.. lol.. gd thing no 1 was hurt...
well, its the 1st time our group plan for bbq and is like for over 50 ppl... and it is done in 2 days.. so the planning is not really very gd... the bbq was kinda rush.. still got rain than the fire very hard to start... but parables today was quite united o..! haha...
althought it was tired and bz, but i didnt mind.. haha... as it was fun too... than it ended till like 11+.... yawn... tired le.. wanna slp le.. nite!
today still got bbq... and is my group organise it... we know we are the organiser for the bbq long time ago... but no 1 went to do it.. till 3 days ago, we than start to rush... and if without father T to rush us for the price list, i don tink we will start that early too.. haha... mayb all of us will jus 4get abt the bbq... haha
so today went shopping... i woke up at 6am.. so as to meet them at 8... done everything by 7.05am.. than went to watch the shows that i recorded the night b4... when it was abt time to go out, i still didnt off =.= suddenly have the urge to watch finish that episode.. haha.. so in the end... YES! i was late =.=
but late also gd lah.. cos when i reach there, only 2 ppl reach only... out 0f 18 ppl, only 2 arrive.. haha... so plus me, 3... soon, jos came... than we decided not to wait.. and went to shop... during the shopping trip, there is some fun events... like the action when dora are to hold the sotong.. haha!
also, we also learn how to choose fresh stringray and sotong... if sotong is white, it is fresh.. if got lots of red dots, it was not really fresh le... for stingray, u got to smell the fish whether there is urine smell... if there is, ur fish will have the taste of urine too...
after buying all the things, we went back to wash the chicken wings and sotong and more... i was in the chicken wings section... haha... the chickens are like sooo BLOODY! the chickens sure eat lots of iron b4 it died.. so it produce lots of blood... haha... cos it is frozen chickens, we add water into the big basin where we store the chickens.. than the water was like sooooo cold.. than our hands are like FREEZING!
than we still massage the chickens.. help the wings to do some stretching, pressing... haha.... than we add those sauces to make the wings taste nicer.. well, its really the 1st time i did those.. every other bbq that i went, they jus take the wings and put butter than bbq le..
than still got 1 fun de... sotong not only don have brains, but they also very greedy o! we got 1 sotong, than we cut it.. and know wat we found?? SMALL UNDIGESTED FISHES!! not only 1 lei.. but is 2 and half! haha... wa.. they really very greedy o!
at the bbq night, we still have the ritual dance for the blessing of fire.. of course not church thingy lah.. but father T wanted us to have this dance so as to make the bbq fun... than we make out the dance in like a few hrs... it was so funny lah!!! total got 3 types of movements... than we dance with only 1 tune... "who ga sha ga~ who ga sha ga!" we still have the tribe leader-JOEL! haha... he still make his face wif the chachco power so that he look more like the leader.. haha... he is funny...
than we still have a small explosion!! donno who put the lighter near the fire there... and no 1 saw it... it jus suddenly BOOM! no fire lah.. but lots of smokes... the 2 person cooking over there was shock... and me, who was at the side, was hited by a small thing.. but donno is wat.. lol.. gd thing no 1 was hurt...
well, its the 1st time our group plan for bbq and is like for over 50 ppl... and it is done in 2 days.. so the planning is not really very gd... the bbq was kinda rush.. still got rain than the fire very hard to start... but parables today was quite united o..! haha...
althought it was tired and bz, but i didnt mind.. haha... as it was fun too... than it ended till like 11+.... yawn... tired le.. wanna slp le.. nite!
12:51 AM @nn3_@n+
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
a short post than off to slp =p
hmmm... went to church... YES! church! i wanna keep myself in church! i want to make up for events that i missed in the past! i lost so much fun! i want to b involved in the future events!~ in the past donno wat has happen to me and i lost the old me that was once love my group parables! but now, i will b back! YES! BACK!
started practicing on the skit that was on 26th dec.... a skit abt friendship~ i wanted to do this well! today was high~ haha... crazy le... gd! than lobang enid's dad car home... wee~~
than receive janice msg... very supporting! very encouranging! very happy that she didnt 4get me after all... as i was drifted away frm them in the past... YES! i m back! BACK!! haha... i m crazy le.. haha...
p.s. janice, donno whether u will c this... but really thanks for ur msg.. ur encourangment... it really supports me.. love ya!
ok! tml gonna wake up at 6 to go shing soing to buy food for the bbq!~ wahahaha!!! a long day tml~~ WEE~~~
hmmm... went to church... YES! church! i wanna keep myself in church! i want to make up for events that i missed in the past! i lost so much fun! i want to b involved in the future events!~ in the past donno wat has happen to me and i lost the old me that was once love my group parables! but now, i will b back! YES! BACK!
started practicing on the skit that was on 26th dec.... a skit abt friendship~ i wanted to do this well! today was high~ haha... crazy le... gd! than lobang enid's dad car home... wee~~
than receive janice msg... very supporting! very encouranging! very happy that she didnt 4get me after all... as i was drifted away frm them in the past... YES! i m back! BACK!! haha... i m crazy le.. haha...
p.s. janice, donno whether u will c this... but really thanks for ur msg.. ur encourangment... it really supports me.. love ya!
ok! tml gonna wake up at 6 to go shing soing to buy food for the bbq!~ wahahaha!!! a long day tml~~ WEE~~~
11:58 PM @nn3_@n+
Monday, December 11, 2006
i finally get confirm! donno y... after the bishop make a cross on my forehead wif the oil, i suddenly like very blank.. nth was in mind.. than kneel to pray... tears start rolling without any reason.. donno y.. but somehow, felt relaz.. like the troubles in me was suddenly let off...
but that relaz feeling didnt last long... the next day(today) it was back.. those troubled feeling... and the feeling was like doubled.. starting still ok de.. but till i argue wif mom over a small matter, this feeling was suddenly emplified.. it affect my mood for the whole day.. till now is still like that..
in the past no matter how sad i m, i wont like felt depressed outside.. even if i did, the tear wont like wanting to flow out in the public.. but today, it did.. well, of course i tried to stop it frm coming out lah.. so gd thing was not found out by my friends~ piew~ but my friends do know that i m not myself today... they know i m moody...
at the bus trip back home, ya sort of xiang tong le... cannot b sad... cannot b depressed... must b HAPPY! so force myself to smile... than i become HIGH! of course not taking drug lah.. i mean like crazy le.. keep toking... well, thats normal for me... everytime after depressing, i always become high de.. mayb a crazy way of relax....
didnt know wats happening now.. b4 o lvl, i can gib myself an excuse that i was under stress so i m not myself, not like b4.. but now lei? wat excuse can i give? i feel like i m running away frm something.. but wat is it? i donno.. even i want to face it i also donno how.. wat is the prob?
i feel like closing down the blog... my blog is always writting moody things.. ppl come, read these type of post also sian diao... but other than typing, i donno wat i can do next.. tok to some1 abt it? awww.. cant... cos i don even know wat is the prob and i m still not able to open up myself to any1...
something i feel like saying out.. but it is like a too personal.. and is like only able to tink in mind not able to express.. i don even know wat i want... when there is very personal probs, cannot type here... write in diary? nah! i'm lazy.. and my language SUX! talk to myself on bed? nah! felt like a crazy person..(well, i m crazy) talk to some1?? NAH! 100% 4ever and ever i wont ever do that...
everytime ppl ask:" u ok?" "got prob mah?" i only will reply: " ya, ok" " nono.. no prob, very fine" but i know i m deciving myself... but if u ask me "wats the prob?" i know i wont b able to ans... i donno... donno... really donno.....
everytime go other ppl blog, reading their post, it is like their post is always happy de... like here outing, there outing... always happy day... but is it really that happy?
the arguing today lead to something that was being buried in me for long time... in the past i didnt say is because i know wat parents say or do is got reason de and i understand it... because of my family huan jing... and i know they are not wrong.. but day by day, gibing reason to urself, "parents is tired , got to work, health not gd" and think that u are not bothered by these things... yes, in logic i know its true and is reasonable... but to a child, we hoped it, and it turn into a dispointment... as times goes by, it stored more and more...
today i said it out... telling them wat i hoped for and the disspointment everytime i get... ppl say, say everything out and u will feel better.. but i didnt... i felt worst! mayb is because i don hope that they will know that i care for such thing.. i dont want them to tink too much abt it and affect them...
in the past after saying out wat i feel, i will b ok in a while.. but this time, i tink i cant... for a whole day the feeling was there... if the feeling still dont want to go off, i gotta act like nth happen... cos i know if i continue to b sad and have a distance inbetween, the relationship between us will b futher and futher... i dont want that to happen... the distance between us is already too far...
BUT!! that does not mean my parents is not gd hor!! they are gd.. they care for their child.. its jus that they are not able to c the inner side of their child nia... cannot blame ar.. not all parents can do it rite?? ya...
this will b the last post that i will write abt these type of post... i wont ever write families sadness post again... its no use... i want my blog to b happy... i only want to post something that is happy... as long as not sad can liao... i dont want any1 to know abt me... since i already choose to hide, i will hide everything... frm now on, i will only b HAPPY... ya.... happy.... happy...
i read an email b4, it says that ppl that always to wear black clothes is because they want to hide. they want to b camofluged.. not to b discovered... and those who know me, will realise that i always wear black... so ya.. jus let me hide... i m not going to tink of any to change anymore.. thats very tiring...
p.s. sorry but i do not wish to c any comments abt this post on my tag board nor on msn.. aiya jus don tok abt this post in any way.. no need any encouargement or anything... i donno y.. i m weird... =.=
anne, in hebrew signifies "gracious".. haha... i don tink i m able to do wat my name means... LOL! i m lousy =.=
last post... LAST!
but that relaz feeling didnt last long... the next day(today) it was back.. those troubled feeling... and the feeling was like doubled.. starting still ok de.. but till i argue wif mom over a small matter, this feeling was suddenly emplified.. it affect my mood for the whole day.. till now is still like that..
in the past no matter how sad i m, i wont like felt depressed outside.. even if i did, the tear wont like wanting to flow out in the public.. but today, it did.. well, of course i tried to stop it frm coming out lah.. so gd thing was not found out by my friends~ piew~ but my friends do know that i m not myself today... they know i m moody...
at the bus trip back home, ya sort of xiang tong le... cannot b sad... cannot b depressed... must b HAPPY! so force myself to smile... than i become HIGH! of course not taking drug lah.. i mean like crazy le.. keep toking... well, thats normal for me... everytime after depressing, i always become high de.. mayb a crazy way of relax....
didnt know wats happening now.. b4 o lvl, i can gib myself an excuse that i was under stress so i m not myself, not like b4.. but now lei? wat excuse can i give? i feel like i m running away frm something.. but wat is it? i donno.. even i want to face it i also donno how.. wat is the prob?
i feel like closing down the blog... my blog is always writting moody things.. ppl come, read these type of post also sian diao... but other than typing, i donno wat i can do next.. tok to some1 abt it? awww.. cant... cos i don even know wat is the prob and i m still not able to open up myself to any1...
something i feel like saying out.. but it is like a too personal.. and is like only able to tink in mind not able to express.. i don even know wat i want... when there is very personal probs, cannot type here... write in diary? nah! i'm lazy.. and my language SUX! talk to myself on bed? nah! felt like a crazy person..(well, i m crazy) talk to some1?? NAH! 100% 4ever and ever i wont ever do that...
everytime ppl ask:" u ok?" "got prob mah?" i only will reply: " ya, ok" " nono.. no prob, very fine" but i know i m deciving myself... but if u ask me "wats the prob?" i know i wont b able to ans... i donno... donno... really donno.....
everytime go other ppl blog, reading their post, it is like their post is always happy de... like here outing, there outing... always happy day... but is it really that happy?
the arguing today lead to something that was being buried in me for long time... in the past i didnt say is because i know wat parents say or do is got reason de and i understand it... because of my family huan jing... and i know they are not wrong.. but day by day, gibing reason to urself, "parents is tired , got to work, health not gd" and think that u are not bothered by these things... yes, in logic i know its true and is reasonable... but to a child, we hoped it, and it turn into a dispointment... as times goes by, it stored more and more...
today i said it out... telling them wat i hoped for and the disspointment everytime i get... ppl say, say everything out and u will feel better.. but i didnt... i felt worst! mayb is because i don hope that they will know that i care for such thing.. i dont want them to tink too much abt it and affect them...
in the past after saying out wat i feel, i will b ok in a while.. but this time, i tink i cant... for a whole day the feeling was there... if the feeling still dont want to go off, i gotta act like nth happen... cos i know if i continue to b sad and have a distance inbetween, the relationship between us will b futher and futher... i dont want that to happen... the distance between us is already too far...
BUT!! that does not mean my parents is not gd hor!! they are gd.. they care for their child.. its jus that they are not able to c the inner side of their child nia... cannot blame ar.. not all parents can do it rite?? ya...
this will b the last post that i will write abt these type of post... i wont ever write families sadness post again... its no use... i want my blog to b happy... i only want to post something that is happy... as long as not sad can liao... i dont want any1 to know abt me... since i already choose to hide, i will hide everything... frm now on, i will only b HAPPY... ya.... happy.... happy...
i read an email b4, it says that ppl that always to wear black clothes is because they want to hide. they want to b camofluged.. not to b discovered... and those who know me, will realise that i always wear black... so ya.. jus let me hide... i m not going to tink of any to change anymore.. thats very tiring...
p.s. sorry but i do not wish to c any comments abt this post on my tag board nor on msn.. aiya jus don tok abt this post in any way.. no need any encouargement or anything... i donno y.. i m weird... =.=
anne, in hebrew signifies "gracious".. haha... i don tink i m able to do wat my name means... LOL! i m lousy =.=
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11:24 PM @nn3_@n+
Saturday, December 09, 2006
hmmm~ today went mco... grrr so STRESS lah.. is like 4get all the songs and fingering... cham cham.. how am i going to survive for the next few week? now, i seems like i got no interest in co le.. donno y.. today dot and her friend also went.. they join permently in mco.. well, hope they will like it lots ba..~
today got the meeting wif the lectors abt the christmas play.. the theme is abt friendship~ the play script althought is not complete yet, but i know the script will b well done.. as it is written by our beloved script writter ANNABEL! than we discuss the program.. than at 4, sec4 need to go up for the rehearsal of the confirmation mass...than all of us leave the room..
than donno y ar.. like got a force attracting me to turn back.. so i turn... and i saw SHAUNA!!! ARRR!! today she dress till so KAWAII!!!!! when she saw me, she excitedly wave to me.. haha.. so cute!!! due to time constrains, i only can wave back and went up for the rehearsal.. T_T than cos i m gonig to the mass on sun for this week, so i lose the chance of seeing shauna at the children choir at the sat 6pm mass.. T_T
the rehearsal lazy to write lah... haha.. it only last abt 45 min... so also nth to say.. so i shall jus stop here le~ bb~
today got the meeting wif the lectors abt the christmas play.. the theme is abt friendship~ the play script althought is not complete yet, but i know the script will b well done.. as it is written by our beloved script writter ANNABEL! than we discuss the program.. than at 4, sec4 need to go up for the rehearsal of the confirmation mass...than all of us leave the room..
than donno y ar.. like got a force attracting me to turn back.. so i turn... and i saw SHAUNA!!! ARRR!! today she dress till so KAWAII!!!!! when she saw me, she excitedly wave to me.. haha.. so cute!!! due to time constrains, i only can wave back and went up for the rehearsal.. T_T than cos i m gonig to the mass on sun for this week, so i lose the chance of seeing shauna at the children choir at the sat 6pm mass.. T_T
the rehearsal lazy to write lah... haha.. it only last abt 45 min... so also nth to say.. so i shall jus stop here le~ bb~
9:35 PM @nn3_@n+
Sunday, December 03, 2006
yo! blogging again! wee~~ well, today is the rite of election... which means need ppl to go up and speak up for u.. sth happen lah.. and actually not very happy abt it... but suan le... thanks to all the parables sec 3! thanks for speaking up for all of us! we will help u all next year de!! and i receive a kiss frm DORA!! wa!!!~~~ haha.... it kinda shock me as she kiss me on the cheek when we exchange peace.. i was like stuned for a moment haha!! sotong me! but it feels so sweet =D thanks dora! love ya!!!
ya! in the last post i spelled some of the names wrongly... ok! finally receive some pic frm my friends le... althought not complete yet.. but tink is enf to post here ba... i will jus pick some clear ones to post... they are jus so KAWAYI!!! here it goes~~
i m the winner!! hmmm who's him? nvm still cute~~ haha
the most handsome kid in the group!
performing time!!
left: caitlin,charlene,me
he dam cute lah..!!!
angelyn's bro 
green group photo
3 girls & me 
shauna!!!
some girls & enid 
zephen
eduard (kawayi rite??) 
jus playing~
group photo!!! (not complete yet) 
rachel
marian 
emmanuel
eduard 
caitlin 
ok! so thats all wif the photo~~ awww... i miss them lah..!!!! grrr... ok stop here le! wee~~ nite~!
ya! in the last post i spelled some of the names wrongly... ok! finally receive some pic frm my friends le... althought not complete yet.. but tink is enf to post here ba... i will jus pick some clear ones to post... they are jus so KAWAYI!!! here it goes~~
i m the winner!! hmmm who's him? nvm still cute~~ haha
the most handsome kid in the group!
performing time!!
left: caitlin,charlene,me
he dam cute lah..!!!
angelyn's bro 
green group photo
3 girls & me 
shauna!!! 
some girls & enid 
zephen 
eduard (kawayi rite??) 
jus playing~ 
group photo!!! (not complete yet) 
rachel 
marian 
emmanuel 
eduard 
caitlin 
ok! so thats all wif the photo~~ awww... i miss them lah..!!!! grrr... ok stop here le! wee~~ nite~!
12:50 AM @nn3_@n+